random feelings....

Might be the reason that I've not been in a relationship for a period,
I've forget whats the feeling of love or admire.
Being in a relationship for 2 years and more
going through all the sweetness and bitter together
indulging ourselves in the river of love really had blinded us.

getting a new life being single again isn't easy at first
but luckily i still have supportive friends around me
accompany me when I'm alone
cheer me up when i look tired or sad.

Also thanks to the hectic assignments and projects
which turn me around all the time...
which also help me in forgetting such depressing story
that also did help me learn to be independent and strong

I confess that I'm a very clumsy girl
everyone knows that i guess...
getting things screwed up or repeating the clumsiness all the time
I'm still adapting to overcome it, becoming more careful

But whenever i fall, whenever i fail,
i realize that there's no one here by my side
to comfort me when I'm in pain
but there's many people around me caring as a friend

His say was right i think
that I'm kinda like "protected species"
that's why he will take care of me most of the time
but still I'm clumsy and trouble him all the time

Another person's say was absolutely important to me
that i need to learn to be independent
cos he will never be with me anymore to solve all my problems
therefore i really need to start all over again

it started hard, slowly, slowly getting used to it..
the two main pillars in my uni life
who gave me lots of strength and courage
who lead me to who i am today.

not forgetting my parents who keep asking bout my health
I'm worried too.. what else for them??
no worries, I've plan to settle it soon
actually will be after my finals, during semester break.. sobs..

and to all my friends, thanks for all the support that you gave
i really appreciate everyone of you, especially the crazy girl.
you know who you are, keep doing crazy things with me in uni...
cheers for single, cheers for our friendship, cheers for FINAL... no...


To Be Continue, [tired, lazy to write]
*cheeky*

累

总是一个人躲在角落流泪
找不到人分享心事
哭累了就睡觉。。。
但试问我可以累多少次，
起来后，事情就解决了吗？

每个人都有一班好朋友，
除了我。。。
我永远都孤独一人，
真正需要朋友时都不会有人陪。

独行好累好累。。。
茫茫大海却没有个岸让我休息，
我该漂到何时？？

我爱他

他的轻狂留在 某一节车厢
地下铁里的风 比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐


如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开 爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖 越多的空白
该怎么去爱

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐

如果还有遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以 很好

真假

明明表现得很爱，很关心，很疼，很保护，很需要，很想。。。
为什么到后来竟是假的？
我真的分不清了。。。

如果你还爱我

最近分手了，因为某些事。。
我放弃了一个对我不好的男生。
也放弃了两个对我好的男生。
很怀念，却很矛盾。。。
我要的不是自由吗？
为什么没有枷锁时却感觉孤单起来？
因为习惯吗？还是我太依赖了？

只想对你们两位说，感谢你们那么疼爱我，
我却那么狠心伤害了你们。。
在失去后，我才发现原来我们的情况会更糟。。
我们不会像以前那样好了。。。
虽然我会非常怀念那些过去。
虽然我不想我们沦落到这个地步。
但是我知道你们俩的心很难复合。。。

哥，抱歉我对你发了那么大的脾气。
华，抱歉我做了对不起你的事。

如果你还爱我 -- 光良

我带着一颗疲惫的心走了
我知道自己在你心里已不重要
虽然我们曾经相聚过
也许对于你来说
已经没有什么值得回忆

我带着一颗沉重的心走了
我知道自己没有勇气道别离
虽然我们曾经拥有过
但是对于你来说
已经没有什么值得回忆

难道早已注定
不能真正拥有你
难道我真心付出一切
只为了承受孤单和寂寞
我知道你不敢对我坦白
是不要看到我的伤怀
虽然你没有说要离开我
我已经感到你不再属于我

如果你还爱我
你不会对我如此的冷漠
又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊
如果你还爱我
你不会对我如此的冷漠
我只能含着眼泪
默默的离开